Update

I got a message from my friend (who got me into blogging) Serenity 30 and she said I needed to write another post, lol so here goes. As for my previous posts, not much has changed, but I'm growing in myself enough to let it not make me sad. I do find joy in my kids though so in the great tradition of Serenity I will "introduce" you to my kids.

Marcus is my 5 1/2 year old who is the cutest, brightest Kindergartener in the world, lol. He's learning a lot at school and is very in to math (reading not so much). But anyway, he explained to me that he was 5 and I'm 33, which means I have a 3 in the tens place but he has a 0 that no one mentions because it's 0, lol. But he tells me that if you add one to our tens places that's the same as adding 10 to the number - following me? So in 10 years he'll be 15 and I'll be 43. I was impressed at the thought he put into it so I was telling him how proud I was of him. So he continues to say that when he's 25 I'll be 53, if the good Lord doesn't take me to Heaven by then! That little turd!

Brandon is my 3 year old. He's a lot different than Marcus. He's much more of what I'd call a normal boy. He's into toy cars and action figures, etc. And he's definitely bi-polar! He can be the sweetest little boy and then turn into a monster in 2 secs. Well the other night we're at dinner with my sister and he says to her, I love you Britt, You're a princess! And he hugs her - so sweet. Then he turns to me and says I love you Mama - you're a king?! No words, lol!

Married But Single?

I'm married - been that way for 8 1/2 years - but there are many times, like this weekend, that I feel like I'm a single mom. My husband is a homebody. He doesn't like to go out much which most people think is great but when he's at home and watching me do everything around the house and for the boys I wish he weren't here at all.

He's a teacher and doesn't work as many hours or days as I do but I'm still expected to do all of the cleaning and anything that relates to the boys. For example, this weekend, they were both sick so all of the medicine giving and "it's going to be okay" talks had to come from me. My youngest is being potty trained and anytime he has an accident, my husband yells at him about how he should go to the bathroom but never changes him.

When we got into a little altercation about Valentine's Day yesterday, I asked what were his plans for us and he went on and on about how it was a stupid holiday and he didn't believe in it. He said all we normally do is go out to eat but since the kids are sick we aren't going. So I asked if he would cook for me (he cooks almost every day) and he said he wasn't planning on it.

Then I asked if it's too much for me to desire to be treated like I'm loved (i.e. pampered) just one day out of the year and he said he'll pamper me after I pamper him. Is it just me or is something gravely wrong with this picture?

Yes, I'm telling the whole story...

My First Entry

I've been reading my friend's blogs (both writers though) for a few years now and I just need to test it out myself. I think I will center this (as everything else in my life) around my boys. I have two boys: Marcus is 5 1/2 and Brandon will be 3 next month. They're both sick right now with ear infections. They unfortunately inherited my allergies.

Well I'm here tonight on Valentine's Day playing on the Internet because my beautiful husband of 8 1/2 years says he doesn't believe in the holiday (mind you he's believed all previous 8 years, but that's okay I'm not stupid). I need to find my happiness in myself. What a statement, huh! But I will do it.

Well that's all for now. Especially since I don't have an audience yet!